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Asher.. happy in bassinet





after reading Ariel's post.. i started noticing a few things around here. Asher is pretty good at night. doesnt really wake up a million times.. however. .. . when he IS awake during the day.... things go a bit like this::::

Happy: being held by grandma.

so happy in car seat that he falls asleep with his hands up. he he. i laughed out loud in public for like 5 minutes at this. then took a pic and sent it to Laura and Ange.




Happy in car seat.. staring into the light.. contemplating big things im sure.



Happy with mommy;.... of course. :)

....................dun dun dun.. prepare yourself.

MAD. in pack n' play.. (brand new might i add. and it even has owls on it! how can that make you mad?)

MAD in swing. mad enough that Alligator is willing to share her toys. (the black object in her mouth).. she becomes WAY TOO concerned when he is crying. probably because he never does it. .. so she comes dashing in the room. and offers him her toy seal.

my hard earned money going to some real quality enjoyment in his swing.

prepping to change his diaper. not even out of my arms for 30 second. . . and screaming like he hasn't been fed food in a week!

ah yes. things are going smoothly on the home front. its not all that bad that he screams. he has such a sweet scream. i know im spoiling him by holding him all the time. ... but i really dont care right now. in a few months i might be ready to rip out my hair. .. but today.. im ok.

other happenings of our day:::

-dinner at the mall food court (classy)

-visiting fraunt kess...

-me receiving a great Priesthood blessing from Ryan

-me actually washing my hair. (sad that this actually makes the list.)

-a good chiropractic apt... only a few more weeks till the law suit is filed. im hoping the lawyers are ready to fight for me. mommy needs some money .. and a new car.. since ms teen driver totaled it over 8 months ago.

-me almost finishing off half the confetti cake i made last night. gross.

-prepping myself for the big 5 year anniversary of my marriage tomorrow. i think i feel confident that i wont cry.! (that says a lot). i know im an emotional/sentimental/UBER emotional person.... but i think one day.... in a few years... sept 4th will be just another day of the year for me. . . and that i wont even remember ... (that happens right? im not the only divorced girl that gets sad on this day right?)..? oddly enough i think that my run in with him at the gas station last week has saved me. it was refreshing, liberating, and very therapeutic... to receive a hug from the wonderful man that i loved for SOOO many years.. .. it was great! to see how happy he is and to talk to him like a friend talks to a friend.. priceless! never the less... 9/4 will probably always mean something to me.. because he was an important part of my life. . and a very good part of my life. if i had my way.. we would be friends forever.. but that just doesnt happen when you dont have kids and when you remarry. .. so... my little run in brought a tremendous amount of sadness off my shoulders.. to remember that someone DID love me once.. (which is easy to forget after all thats happened in the last year)..i was lucky to be married to him. and i am so happy for him in his new life. .. and this week is probably the first time i have been able to say that and actually mean it.. !! (did i drag this topic on too long... ya.. i did).. ... Que Sera, Sera!!

-3 days clean and sober off Afrin. thats right. im doing it! i feel so proud of myself and my little nose!!! i am still stuffy from the rebound.. but i feel great! i can actually smell things!!! (including when my baby has a dirty diaper.. )... which may or may not be a good thing. i give myself another week and i will be good as gold.

-catching up with my sweet friend Mindy. ..

-zero pain pills taken this week. (finally). i think im finally feeling healed. . . and after 6 weeks i think i better just stop.. cuz thats straight up addiction if i take them at this point. i guess.

-Asher turning 6 weeks friday! i cant believe Asher is 6 weeks and Brecklyn is STILL not here.!!! come on baby girl!! im ready to meet you already......!!

that is all.