tuesday

Thankful Tuesday

A healthy child: man.. its been a rough week at work. i have become this emotional mommy that cries when the sick babies look bad and come close to coding. . . i use to feel so strong. but now... every patient is someones baby. . . of course i knew that before having Asher. but now i think i have become this uber emotional walking disaster. does it ever go away?. .. i think it is just part of motherhood..

Friends:: who listen to me. who text me. who talk to me. who give me advice and who genuinely love me. who check in on me . who love Asher. who are smart, and loving, and inspirational. who listen to my endless internal (and external) thoughts and feelings. they humor me when i want to show them pics of my child. they encourage me. they provide a solid foundation for change and support in my crazy life.
Hand Sanitizer: its everywhere. i use it at least 20 times a day. although.. i have been sick quite a few times this year.. my baby is still healthy as can be. thank you avagard.

Self help books: right now i am reading THIS. im a nerd. i am learning so much! !! i need all the help i can get. i may not be reading about vampire lovers and such.. but i enjoy it. the last few weeks i feel so strong. im learning to be more assertive and to create my own happiness.

Faith: its a wonder what a little faith can do for your personal happiness. . and self worth. i have this constant feeling of peace in my heart this week. by doing things to increase my faith. . . to believe.,.. that i deserve good things. that i will have good things. that i am promised good things. if i only make correct choices. . and have faith.

Baby smiles, splashes, and giggles. Asher is on a roll.... he is so ticklish. . especially from kisses on his big belly, or under his arms.. . he laughs constantly now. he splashes so much water out of the bath tub .. that by the end of our 10 minute bath.,. he is in a shallow puddle. . . ugh.. who knew the heart could love another person so much.