Sometimes

wedding post will be coming soon.
lots of gathering pics and recollecting all the details. ....
i will post that it was the MOST WONDERFUL day of my 25 years. .. I married the most amazing man. gained a wonderful family. gained a daughter :) ... got a new last name... spent time with my family.. and my new family. we then went to our Suite at the Hotel Monaco :)_ my favorite place on earth!!!!! we ate sushi and had so much fun together. Pics to come

SOMETIMES
i cant believe i got Jared. he is the most perfect man... and that is not an exhaggeration. he is honorable, happy, happy to be with me...

SOMETIMES
i spend all day watching my crazy kids... who should turn me crazy... but instead i end up laughing ALL day long. they are two of the funniest, smartest, kind, loving little creatures in the world and i feel lucky to be near them all day. they teach me so much.

SOMETIMES
my heart hurts. for the broken side of the long family. i hate it. i think of it constantly. my dad and my mom mostly. the healthy and unhealthy of it all. but mostly i desperately seek for asher to have a life of normalcy. . just a normal life. no drama.

SOMETIMES

i want to give up on the sippy cup war.

i want to go to the beach so bad it brings tears to my eyes as i type this.

i want to sleep deep, and in late

i want to buy a car ..... something that i could have all to myself. so i dont have to depend on my mom driving me around.

i wish people were more considerate.

i wish i could get skinny.

i imagine what is wrong with me... why i have no internal cooler. why im always so hot.

i hope my kids will learn how fun it is to share