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well. i said i would never do it. but i think i better. out of the complete blue... got a real nice text last night from Asher's Dad's new bar tender girlfriend.. (why she text me i have no idea) ..... anyway. some how she got my number. and began harassing me. which is way fun when your in bed trying to sleep and a giant pregnant lady. such wonderful comments as..........: your chubby, and ugly. and were before you were pregnant,.... to: nice try with the fake baby.. at least i can make real ones. ... keep in mind i have no idea who this person is, have never met her, talked to her, or known a thing about her. classy right? im not sure what i have done to people to let them think they can just say stuff like that. let alone a man who abandons his child and then allows some stranger to talk to his child's mother that way.

So.. in an effort to avoid the already ridiculous zack harassment...... i no longer want to put my pictures out there for just anyone to see. as well as my personal thoughts, details of my pregnancy, links to my friends, and pictures of my son.
sad.. because i hate private blogs. but i guess i have no real choice.

I have done this pregnancy completely alone. i have found so much happiness in it. and i wont allow mean people to say things like that to me. i have already been degraded as a person by Zack, how a human being exists like him, in the church, in the world. is beyond my comprehension.
I am sick of being embarrassed by him. and because of him. yes, i made a bad choice, but have found complete happiness and a sense of peace in salvaging my life. and preparing to be a good mother. this is MY son. not his. this is MY life, and i wont let him destroy it a second longer. i have nothing but happiness to look forward to.

SOOOOOO... if you want to be included on the whole private blog deal.. let me know. like i said. i hate doing it. .. sorry for the over load of personal info. love love love you friends. thanks for being supportive.