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my hips hurt.
my back aches.
i cant sleep.
my gums bleed when i brush my teeth.
i am constantly sick to my stomach.
i am dying of thirst.
i cant climb over the kid gates easily anymore.
i have anxiety to the max and cant do a darn thing about it.
heart burn has creeped into my every day routine.
i ..........Kim........... am happy to be rounding the 3rd trimester corner.

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i turned 26 on Tuesday. i am officially closer to 30 than to 20. how sad.
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my kids are wild. they are in to everything. i mean EVERYTHING! . sometimes i think the word "No" makes it worse. discipline is something i really struggle with. i am trying really hard to have more of a backbone. to "pull the mommy card" as my husband says.
Mya is turning 2 years old on Saturday. blows my mind. she is growing like a weed. ..her vocabulary, and her body. clothes i never imagined her fitting into are suddenly too small.
and same goes for
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Asher. he hit a growth spurt this last few weeks. all his pants look like capri shorts, and his wrists peek out of the bottom of his sleeves.
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i hate having an anxiety disorder. it really hinders my life. its not every single day that i feel like i do tonight. tonight i feel like my throat is closing up.... and im gittery. yuck. i am trying extra hard to find relief naturally. but it is the hardest thing EVER. my only mildly helpful activity is sleeping. or loving on the babies. or taking a long shower. thats it. and the relief is only short lived.
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Ange moved to Pheonix today. boo. guess it gives me an excuse to get out of Utah and visit her... and let Asher visit his best buddy. they said good bye and gave each other hugs yesterday. it was tender. :)

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this concludes my random thoughts post.

i will close with a quote from Asher.......
"see ya, bye"