really?

Dear Kim's uterus; PLEASE calm down. i am begging you. pleading. i am hydrated, and resting, and all other friendly non-contracting things they say will help. saturday. after several hours of "braxton hicks" aka real contractions, jared and i went in to get checked out. 32 weeks. ugh. monitor showed i was having true contractions every 3 minutes. really? what? 3 iv sticks- iv fluids - and one shot of Trebuteline. not dilated. sent home to rest. relief for only a few hours. sunday night. several hours of 3 minute contractions. went back to labor and delivery. dilated to 1cm effaced 40%. really? what? tears tears tears. 5 iv pokes. iv fluid. 6 hours. given oral Nifedipine. no more dilation in those hours. so sent home (STILL contracting)... on bed rest. monday= still contracting. every 4 minutes. laying in bed. took a bath. i refuse to go back in tonight. praying constantly . i do not want to have this baby at 32 weeks. 16 weeks of progesterone shots to prevent THIS. i apparently have anxious little boys that want to come out early. at least ash waited till 36 weeks. what is elliot thinking? i am a human pin cushion. i have so much laundry to catch up on. i still need to wash all of Elliot's clothes and get more diapers. ahhhhhhhhhhhh. praying things get better. dont know what im doing wrong! i have done everything right. gained no weight. diabetes is SUPER under control with no medication. i get lots of rest. but apparently it doesnt matter. my body does not like keeping babies in till term. Nurse- "You are 1cm" . Me- "no" followed by crying. Nurse- "crying will make it worse honey" ... um thanks. i will work on that one. and the 10 minutes it took me to write this---- i am contracting every 2 minutes. ridiculous!! someone please help me.