love

love is a weird thing. as a child, and teen you assume that love will be in your future..... that it will be easy and pain free. that your so called "love life" will be all you dreamed. that love comes in a simple form... and it is universal and open.
Love:
Love:
you can love someone and hate them all at the same time.
some people are deserving of your love and others are not.
you can love someone that you have never seen (like a baby on the way).
you can love someone who clearly does not love you back.
love in my book is permanent.
once loved not forgotten.
real love is unconditional.. like family love.
you can pretend to choose who you love..
you can try to choose who not to love..
you can give it out freely even if its not returned.
you can hold it close so no one has the chance to turn it away.
love is nothing like you imagine as a child.. or at least it has not been for me..
i have had enough breaks for a lifetime. i have broken enough for a lifetime. i have the love of my life growing in my belly. i have never turned away love. .. but i am finding out.. that i need to hold it close as to not give it to those unappreciative of it.
why this post?? must be the fact that right now my body is beating TWO hearts! lots of love.. right??