dearest

Dear Joel:
Thank you for an evening of laughter. your much taller in person than i imagined. it was like watching a two hour long episode of the soup.:)
To my dear friend Jessica... thanks for the tickets! i love you ! and owe you:) maybe a night of babysitting?? you have no idea how bad i needed a night out
My sweet Asher: thank you for further entertaining me.. by trying to see how far you can get your little foot out of the right side of my belly. for finally punching aunt chelsea. for dancing day and night. love love you:;;
To mother nature: thank you for the rain, dark sky, and smell of summer. i sleep so great after a night shift when its pounding rain outside... even a slow trickle will do.
Dear week 30: I am so glad you have arrived. to be in the 30's is the BEST feeling! i say six-seven more weeks......
Body pillow: thanks for the sound sleep you have been providing.... you are priceless to me.
Heartburn: heart attack? braxton hicks? labor? fiery death? i dont know the difference. thank you for not ever entering my life until the last 6 weeks.
AlliGator: thanks for chasing your tail for 20 minutes today. and for swallowing your chew toy whole. your entertaining and i love you.
Dear Kim's over preparedness: as week 31 draws close i am glad to have you. i feel confident, prepared, ready, excited.... but completely freaked out all at the same exact moment.
My sweet friends: for planning me a shower. im a lucky one. ..
To strangers: thanks for smiling at me..... or commenting to your self ... "o cute. she is pregnant"............. on an awkward note to add to this. a patients mom was talking to me about my pregnancy yesterday. ... "when are you due?" ........"August"...."what are you having?" ......... "a boy".......... "is your husband excited about that?".... "actually im single, as single as they come, and his dad is not involved.".........."o im sorry i shouldnt have assumed, ummmmm my sisters friend went through the same thing... "..............my thoughts (ok>?)................ followed by the most awkward 10 minutes of silent vital sign collecting .........

im preparing myself to deal with this scenario countless times in the near-far future.. i have decided to stop sharing the detail of Asher's dad being a total piece. i feel guilty bad mouthing him because i imagine Asher can hear me...... it is what it is. even though i do feel i have every right to complain.. or worse. rise above it.. right?
Dear tailbone: i hope you stop feeling broken. and that this pain is not permanent.